Confused My Feelings with The Truth

I found myself,

Looking from the outside.

All alone, without any help,

Without any aid or guide.

I was standing here,

But all I wanted was to be over there.

Why did ever I believe,

Miracles could happen.

I believed you were my fairytale,

My only dream when I am awake,

And a wish on a falling star,

Which some day would come true.

But everyone else could say,

That I confused my feelings with the truth,

When there was only you and me.

I did know the song,

When I had heard you sing.

And your smile made me feel,

Like I could sing along.

But then, you changed the words,

And walked a distance away.

I was left with an empty heart,

And with a song without any lyrics.

Now I know, fairytales don’t exist,

And dreams are meant for sleeping,

And wishes on falling star don’t come true.

Now even I could say,

I was that blind,

That I confused my feelings with the truth,

When there was only you and me.

-Diksha Jawlee

My Magic Beans

You don’t buy Them from the stores,

Or find Them behind hidden doors.

Without any notice They come,

Not just one- two but in lump sum.

Out of Them just few stick around,

And after that, They turn your world upside down.

At least to me They are not mean,

That’s why I call Them My Magic Beans.

You sing with Them, you dance with Them,

And then They make you run like a crazy hen.

They help you in your difficult time,

Hatching the stupidest joke, thinking it would make things fine.

Though it helps in a way,

Like a bright summers day.

On Their shoulder you can always lean,

That’s why I call Them My Magic Beans.

Sometimes They unnecessarily do fight,

 But you should be at ease like a high soaring kite.

They would never ever ditch,

Even if you behave like a super duper bitch.

‘They’ are my best friends,

Living in my thoughts without paying any rent.

They ain’t nothing like the kings or queens,

Just sweet little, My Magic Beans.

-         Diksha J.

Will I Ever Know...

Will I ever know

Why my life is so?

So meaningless, so miserable

And at times completely unbearable

Why do ever elders fight?

I’m sure it’s not something for delight.

Will ever everything be alright?

The chance of it doesn’t seem bright.

Will I ever know

Why my life is so?

They say life isn’t fair,

All I want is just some care.

They say it’s darkest before dawn,

Forget about breaking of dawn, there is not a single silver line coming on.

Oh God, have you turned deaf and blind to me?

If not, please answer my questions and set me free.

-Diksha J.

No Boy!

In a park on a street,

I met a boy who was so sweet.

He took my heart away from me,

And then one day he set it free.

My emotions was not a play thing,

My heart was not a toy.

But it was badly broken,

When I gave it to a boy.

When I used to see him,

My heart began to dance.

My life revolved around him,

And there was nothing like romance.

It wasn't gravity holding me,

It was him.

Whenever he got close to me,

The world used to spin.

And then it started to happen,

My world was totally darkened.

I wondered where he is at night,

I wondered if he was true.

One moment I was happy and bright

And the other moment I turned blue.

I saw him with a girl, passing by,

And the price I paid was too high.

Don’t fall in love with just a boy,

It takes a lot of nerve.

You should need a man,

To get what you deserve.

So when you feel you’re in love,

Be careful if you can.

Before you give your heart away,

Make sure he is a man.

- Diksha Jawlee